How I Discovered Being Inside For Too Long Can Damage My Mental Health

by - November 14, 2018

I woke up today and all I wanted to do was go back to sleep 

Because the feeling of wanting to burst into tears was way too powerful. I didn’t want to get up from my bed, I didn’t want to eat, I didn’t want to shower, and I definitely didn’t want to go to class. I just wanted to stay home, stay in my pajamas, and stay in bed. I didn’t want to move at all, and I certainly didn’t want to stay awake to endure what I knew this day would have in store for me... 

All day I felt like crying. All day I felt like giving up and going home. I have days like these often, but I can usually fight the feeling off until the next day. But something about today was just too much. 

I felt defeated. I felt alone. And I felt trapped. 

I don’t know why; life has been pretty kind to me lately, but it just felt like I’ve been fighting a battle that I don’t seem to be winning and I just couldn’t handle it any longer; it was too much. Everything was just too much.

I just felt exhausted and I felt like crying the whole day away while blasting Sam Smith on my TV. But, I made it through class, I toughed it out on the bus ride home, I even made it through an hour of laying on my couch in silence, still in my jacket and shoes... before I finally broke down. I cried and cried until I couldn’t breathe. My eyes are now sore and I can’t seem to stop this running nose (gross, I know). I was just thankful that I was home alone; I couldn't stand the thought of someone hearing or seeing me this way.

After my break-down

I got on YouTube and put on Kalyn Nicholson. Her channel is amazing and it always helps to take my mind off of things, if only for a moment. While watching one of her videos, with green tea in my hand, I started thinking. I came to the realization that my breakdowns (or “episodes”, as I like to call them) happen more often around the times when I become lazy and start to procrastinate more. Lately, although I’ve been pretty good with my grades and attending class, I’ve mostly been laying on my couch, and binge-watching Netflix and YouTube. Aside from going to class, I don’t even remember the last time I went out and socialized or enjoyed a walk.

See, I’m a classic introvert. I love my solitude and I can't stand being around people for too long (I love being at home), but even I have to go out once in while, to avoid feeling lonely and shut in.

Staying inside your house for long periods of time is unhealthy.

It’s not right for your mind, body or soul. Even going for walks by myself tends to do wonders. You don’t have to talk to other people if you don’t want to, but please, once you realize you’ve been inside for too long, go sit at a cafe or library, and go for a walk. 

Just get out. 


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17 comments

  1. This is true. Typically when we are sad, we withdraw. we want to isolate bc getting up and getting out it too much work.

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    1. It can be a lot of work, yes. The best thing to do is just do it - without pushing yourself too hard, of course. Thank you so much the comment!

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  2. My 19 year old daughter does that a lot - staying in her room and indulge in Netflix and more. A walk is considered a crazy thing to do. I admire you for going out there and go about your day even if you don't feel like it. Courageous post! Thanks for sharing.

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  3. I totally feel this! Sometimes when I'm feeling down and only want to stay in I notice it doesn't help my mood at all, it makes it worse! Being outside in the fresh air is the best thing for anyone!

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    1. It really is! Sometimes we fail to realize just how healing the outdoors can be Xo

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  4. Sending you my cheer as we all get up and do things for to better our mental health. ♥

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  5. I'm pretty content to stay at home most of the time but yes - there is something so healing about getting outside into nature and very balancing about changing up your scenery. Good for you for recognizing your need and doing something about it!

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  6. Oh man. This resonated with me very strongly. If I spend too much time indoors it is a guarantee that my depression will flare up full force. Thank you so much for sharing such a personal story. This year I have focused on making an effort to get outdoors on a regular basis and I have noticed a serious improvement in my mental health. I hope you are feeling better now and getting outside more!

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    1. I finally became aware of this, now I know - walk more! It's such a simple thing, but it can benefit you so much. Thank YOU for this lovely comment! I am, and I am! I went on a hour long hike the day before, with my partner and dog and I plan to do so, again, tomorrow! :)

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  7. Great blog post. Sometimes I have the same issue, and got worse when I started work from home plus cold weathers... I tried myself to go out and at leas breathe fresh air.

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  8. Yes, I know that feeling. And the worst is to isolate. I keep reminding it to myself. Before I had the excuse of my dog to go walking, now I simply don’t do it. I need to change that.

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  9. This is a great post for me. I work from home and I have to be very careful that I don't stay inside too long. I try to make a conscience effort to go out for walks, schedule lunches with my coworkers, and even just leave the house each day. Human contact and fresh air does wonders for my mood.

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  10. Now that I blog, I'm content to stay home a lot. But I get to a point when I have to get out and take a walk or meet friends. It actually boosts my productivity to take a break from it.

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  11. This hit home with me for sure! All I did my first two years of college was hang out in my dorm room, and it showed in my mental health. Great post!

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